Coffee With Yeshua

When you wake up in the morning what is the first thing that comes out of your mouth? For me, when I worked for a job that I didn’t really like I would just groan and wake up either super upset or angry because I had to go to work. I didn’t say one word to my King.

My Words Matter

Whether you know it or not, what you say first thing in the morning affects your entire day. The Father really started to convict me of this. I would start to deliberately make sure that my first words were “Thank You Father!” or “Good morning my King”. This really changed my outlook on my day (even if it is a Monday).

 

Mondays 

We all love those funny memes that talk about how awful Mondays are, or the cute ones with the kittens and puppies, but lets be real, Mondays are not that bad…

 

I guess what I am trying to say is, Mondays don’t have to be that bad guys! I know, I know, ya’ll are thinking I am crazy… Who likes Mondays? But I want to find a way to make my week better! So here is how!

Make my week Better

Change what you say first thing in the morning no matter where you are or what is planned for the day. Let you words be positive and uplifting to others. Speak life over yourself and others.Speak love ad joy over your day. I cannot tell you how many times I lay my hand on my husband when he gets up for work early in the morning with my eyes half shut, saying, “Give him strength, peace, and joy and please protect him.” I pray this under my breath every morning before he gets up. And I believe it makes a difference in his day. So remember to speak life over your loved ones in the morning because it is not all about us. The world today makes it look like we have to better ourselves or do what’s best for us not not think about others. The Bible clearly tells us to love our neighbor as ourselves, so remember to put others first in the morning even if you haven’t had your cup of coffee yet.

 

Lets take a picture!

I am guilty, so guilty, of posting a nice looking photo of my Bible and talking all about how others need to read it and blah blah blah, and when I finally post it on my Instagram I put my Bible away. I didn’t actually read it. I know I am not the only one guilty of that. So I have an idea, as a reward for reading a few verses or however long you want, then post the picture. Then we can look back and see accomplishment and know that we just actually read the passage we are posting about!

Quiet Time

I know for some of you this is a hard thing to have, especially if you have children. I have my first on the way so I will experience it eventually. But what I want to say is you should have your quiet time with the Lord in the beginning of the day. I know this makes a HUGE impact in my day to day life. Whether you sit alone of five minutes and pray or put on some praise and worship music, listen to a sermon while you get ready for work, or sit down and read the word and journal. Whatever it is you have time for, do it. Personally, I listen to praise and worship and put on a sermon while getting ready for work in the morning and that helps me a lot. On other days I will read my word when I get home or on my lunch breaks. Whatever you have time for, do it! It helps you and your walk with the Father in more ways than you can imagine.

It is so important for us to start our day with the King of kings. Let’s have our morning coffee with Yeshua! That is one date you don’t want to miss.

My Love Story

First Things First

I always knew God had a man for me. My mom always encouraged me to “pray for my future husband”. I did. I made a list of things I wanted in a husband when I was about 11 or 12 years old. As years went by the list slowly turned into a small journal FULL of criteria. But, even though I had this “criteria”, I still ventured into a world of falling for boys I couldn’t have. and get my heart broken plenty of times. I chased after guys, though, I believe now it was God’s grace that they never ever chased me back. At the time I wished so badly for a boyfriend, for someone to love me and cherish me. I wanted someone to call me beautiful, to make me feel special. I sat in my room on my free time and did nothing but day dream, wonder, and draw pictures of me getting married. Little did I know, there was a better way I could have handled this.

What I should have done in the waiting

I should have found the Lord. I should have spent my free time praying, serving others, and growing in my relationship with Him. (I do regret not doing this).

Before him…

When I finally had enough of the crying and the broken hearts for the ones I could not have, I prayed to God and fell asleep. That night was a tough night… I cried myself to sleep, and my heart felt shattered. That night, the Lord gave me a dream… My heart flooded with peace! Yeshua was giving me hope, He is a comforter! I am so grateful to Him!

The Dream

“I was walking at a busy beach. I had my phone in my hand and I remember being very frustrated, and annoyed. I think I was texting another boy in the dream. I was looking down because I was typing and I was very focused but I was also walking and not looking where I was going. All of a sudden, I slammed into someone. I fell to the ground and there he was. The man in the dream had spikyish hair, tall, cute (What my husband looks like). I couldn’t see his face in the dream, but I remember exactly what he looked like. I think I gave him my number in the dream then I woke up.”

When I Believed (Sort of)

I woke up refreshed, happy, and peaceful. I woke and was ready to find this dream boy! But there was a problem, I was only 14 years old. The Lord gave me that dream, but I was not ready to meet him yet! I was too young, too immature, and way too far from the Lords plan. So what did I do? I drew pictures of him, prayed (Kind of), and day dreamed. I eventually got extremely impatient. I started liking a guy I couldn’t give up on, again. Then I just started thinking about different guys and how they could be a cute boyfriend without actually thinking if they were “husband materiel”. I had crush, after crush, after crush. None of them lasted long, but I was in love with the idea of love.When I was 16 I still had my dream boy in the back of my mind, but I thought “Maybe it is just a hope, or a fantasy”. I was starting to slowly doubt. I starting texting a boy behind my parents back, and he was way too old for me and wasn’t living a Godly life. But I liked the fact of liking someone. My best friend tried talking me out of it many times, but I still didn’t listen. One day, I was hiding in my room texting him. Then I heard the stairs squeaking, so I quickly threw my phone under my pillow so she didn’t see it. Then I pretended like I was doing something else so she didn’t suspect anything. But my mom is smarter than that! She came in and sat next to me on my bed and was like, “So?”. I was like, “What?”. She then asked me what I was doing. I just told her I was just drawing (Which I kind of was while texting). She then said, “I saw you were talking to a guy, (She then said his name), and I wanted to know if he was your dream boy?”. I froze. I had nothing to say besides, “No”. That night she told me how she felt about the situation, she never said I couldn’t talk to him, but my father was very against it. I cared very much about my parents opinions, which they didn’t know at the time, so them not being okay with it made me uneasy. I still talked to him though, behind their backs. For a few months I just tried to get him to like me, but it just wasn’t working. I was forcing myself to like him because I just wanted a boyfriend. I then gave up. I stopped texting him. That year I went to an amazing youth camp called Camp Yeshua and it changed my life forever. I was never serious about the Lord until then. I had a real encounter with God! He touched my heart. I fell madly in love with Him after that week. I started to delete all my secular “love songs”, everything that wasn’t praise and worship. I began to actually read my Bible for myself. This happened for my best friend as well. We both became on fire for the Lord at the same time and we began to strengthen and sharpen each other. I began to think about “dream boy” again. I then started praying for him daily. After camp, I decided to stop chasing guys, but to let the one come to me in God’s timing. That fall, in October, I saw a post from a boy I met years before.

When We Met At First

I met Nathan when him and his family came over for the Feast Of Unleavened Bread. They heard about our fellowship (Because my dad is the pastor) and wanted to check us out. So my family invited them over. My mother then started telling me about how they have sons near my age. I wasn’t convinced, because I already had “a crush”. But they came and stayed for a while. Nathan looked like he was 9, but he was actually 12. I was 14. He sat on the floor in front of me (Little did I know, he was going to be the love of my life forever), and I leaned over and said, “So do you play any instruments bud?”. I treated him like a little kid. It still makes me laugh to this day. We never talked in person again at that time. But when they left he got a Facebook account and we became friends. He would try to message me (He had a crush on me) but I would keep it short and eventually ignored him for a couple years… He started liking other girls and he says he still thought about me.

I find it funny that I was begging for my dream boy to the Father but he placed him right under my nose and I had already met him. The Lord is funny like that.

When We Talked Again

One day, that October, when I was 16, after camp, I got on Facebook. I was scrolling through the feed and a video popped up! It was Nathan playing guitar! I played the video and as I was watching it, the images of my dream boy came to mind. I began to remember the hair, the face shape, everything! I watched the video over and over and over again! I couldn’t stop. I said over and over, “That’s my dream boy!”. I couldn’t believe it!

I remember I wanted to message him, but I remembered all the times I pursued guys first and it didn’t work out. So I said, “Okay Lord, if he is the one, he will message me first.” I remember it not being too long after either a week or two.I kept waiting, but I was making a status about wanting a free horse and if anyone knew about one then they can message me. Nathan went on Craigslist, (He lived in a different state than me), so he had to go on a different states Craigslist and find me a free horse in my area. He then messaged me a link with a free horse and said, “I saw you were looking for a free horse. I found this one, is it close to your area?”. I remember feeling so flattered that someone would go out of their way like that to help me. It was so romantic in my eyes. I saw the horse but I didn’t end up getting her. When he sent me the link, that began a friendship that never ended. We talked every single day for hours. We asked millions of questions, and we called each other best friends. At first that upset me because I thought I was “friend zoned”, but then I realized years later that being friends first is SO important. We talked for 3months before he confessed his feelings for me. I confessed back. He was 15, I was 16 almost 17. Yes, we were young, and guess what? My parents did not know. I was afraid to tell them! They did say that when I was 16 I could start dating, but I was still afraid! I had never had someone like me back before… So one night, I came down the stairs, shaking. I sat on the stairs quietly, and waiting for my parents to stop talking so I can budge in.

“Mom, Dad,?”

“What?”

“Do you remember Nathan? The one I have been talking to? My friend?”

“Yeah”

“We just told each other we like each other.”

I remember the looks on their faces. They did not know what to do! I am their first born, so this was not only new for me, but for them as well. They were shocked. But they were okay with it. I told them that Nathan had felt that he liked me, but he wanted to wait to get serious until he was a little older because he wasn’t sure if his parents would agree. He decided we would act as friends for a while until he was ready. My parents were okay with that. But as weeks and months went by, it grew more and more serious. We used hearts, kissy faces, said “I like you SOOOO much”, and called each other cute nicknames. This quickly turned into a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship. My parents and Nathan’s parents started to notice the seriousness. We then had to establish “rules”.

RULES

  1. Holding hands is okay
  2. Hugging, okay
  3. kissing? Maybe
  4. Cuddling, okay
  5. Sex? NO

The Lords Plan

When we established these rules, I still didn’t know much about relationships besides what I saw in chick flicks (Which is dangerous!!!!)

I had no idea what to look for in a Godly, set-apart relationship. So, my good friend suggested a book to me called “Boy Meets Girl” by Joshua Harris. It laid out clear boundaries and really opened my eyes to what it looks like to honor a man, and what saving the marriage bed looked like, and how special and exciting it was! He also talked about the idea of saving your first kiss and how he wished he did because his wife did. He admitted that is would have been easier for him if he had never kissed anyone at all. That struck my heart. Nathan and I still hadn’t seen each other in person but we had talked about kissing A LOT… We were both open to it and totally okay with it as long as we didn’t go “too far”. But the Lord had a different plan. That winter, I had to make a decision. I talked to my mom and a good friend for some council on if I should save it or not. They both said it was wise, if I could save my first kiss and how they wished the had. I told them I was afraid to tell Nathan because I was afraid that he would want to kiss me really bad and not like me if I told him no… But, they encouraged me to call him. I went back up to my room and confessed to him how I had this new revelation about kissing. And to my surprise, he was thinking the same thing.

Fairy tale

We grew stronger as a couple. I met up with him at camp, I visited him, he visited me. We had amazing memories together. He first said “I love you” after camp when we first saw each other in person! I loved him too, since the first moment I saw him. Long distance was very hard on us… He worked, I worked and did college. We didn’t have a lot of time to talk sometimes. But we stayed strong. We talked on the phone every night. We were a best friend type of couple, and I feel like that’s how it should be. We talked of marriage and kids, our future together, careers… the Lord. I helped him a lot with his relationship with the Lord and he helped me. We even had Bible studies and prayed on the phone together as often as we could. When 2016 hit, He decided to move here. He was 17, I was 19. He moved in with my family. (I know, I know, we lived together before we got married….) But we NEVER did anything to break our rules still! After 3 years of courtship, we stayed strong. We only had at least one person with us at all times to keep us accountable and we never put ourselves in tempting situations. But I do have to tell ya, I am human, and so is he, we both struggled. Living under the same roof was difficult. We stayed strong.

The Proposal 

On a not July Saturday, I gt ready for my church service. I wore a white dress that I had just bought. We went to service and had an amazing, uplifting time. After service I came home and changed into jeans and a t-shirt. My friends had been messaging me about wanting to do a photoshoot with me cause they missed me and wanted to hangout and have some “girl time”. So I agreed, I loved being with my girls any chance I could! So, they came over and I was trying to decide what to wear with them. I pulled out that white dress again and they said it looked good on me so I should wear it! So I agreed. We all hopped in the car and headed over to the bluff area where we were taking the photos. It was close to sunset. We started taking photos for a good 20 minutes. Then all of a sudden my friend told me to turn around and face the edge of the cliff where the water was. I did and posed for the picture. Then my other friend started to play a song Nathan and I liked on her phone. “You and Me” by Lifehouse. My heart started to flutter. I wasn’t sure if it was happening or if she was playing it just because she liked it.  

Then they all said, “okay you can turn around now”, and there he was. My heart skipped a beat. This was the moment I had waited for for forever. It was very romantic! We were on top of the moon at this moment. I couldn’t stop smiling! God knew. It was all apart of His plan all along. How can I not trust Him? He has gotten us so far already and guided our every step.

We Got Married

That year in December, we got married. We were going to wait until June of 2017, but we just did not want to wait any longer! We planned our wedding with amazing friends who did so much to help! You can find wedding photos on my personal Facebook account if you’re interested.

Nathan was 18, I was 19, when we married. Yes, we were young, and we had been asked many times how old we were and I cannot forget the shock on peoples faces when we tell them how old we are. They seem to not like the fact that we are so young. But to be honest, once you know it is time to get married, just do it! The Bible warns about letting a fire burn in you for too long and that it is better to marry. We trusted the Lord, and now, we are doing great! We had an amazing honeymoon in the beautiful state of Colorado and made lots of memories. When we got home, we were offered an apartment by some amazing friends who bought a house that had 4 apartments inside. They spent a couple months remodeling it for us and it is perfect. We couldn’t be happier. We both work full-time jobs, we always have enough. The Lord has blessed us because we kept our promise to each other and to Him. We honored Him with our relationship and now our marriage. We are now expecting our first little one due in January! (Up dates to come).

For You

My dear friend reading this, trust the Lord. My story isn’t going to be everyone’s story. You have your own love story. The Lord will work it out for the good! Just trust in Him. He guided my steps to Nathan and led us to where we are today and continues to lead us. To this day, I still trust in Him, I still have a strong relationship with the Lord.

So, while you wait, serve the Lord, don’t chase after fairytales! Trust in God! He is the ultimate matchmaker, amen? Let Him lead you. Pray, seek His face, have peace.

-(Photos by Samantha B Studio and Liv Life Photography)

Unexplainable Joy

TO RECEIVE JOY 

The earth is fading each and everyday. We are surrounded with “non-believers” all the time whether it be in the workplace, or just running errands. The enemy drags us down, reminds us of our shame, our guilt, our sin nature. But what can we do?

“The joy of the LORD is my strength.” Nehemiah 8:10

His joy is our strength in this troubled world. The more we spend time with Him, the more we act like Him and the world will no longer shake us nor bring us down but we can stand firm on the promise that Him, His joy, is our strength.

THE WORD

“I bring you good news (God’s Word) that will bring great joy to all people.” Luke 2:10

God’s Word brings us joy as well! We can turn to it in times where we feel let down, feel overwhelmed, feel defeated, and pump ourselves up, build ourselves up to overcome the darkness inside. I can read all about the Lords promises for me, what He did for me, and His Son did for me, what He is doing for me, and what He will do for me. His Word gives me joy.

LIVING FOR HIM

“This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24

“When troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy.” James 1:2

The life He gives us should bring us great joy. I know that for me, when I just sit and look around my home I see all the things that God used people to bless me with. I look at my husband and feel great joy that the Lord made him, shaped him, and designed him for me and me for him. I thank the Lord for my love, my family, my friends, and my job. I have so much, but yet, sometimes I desire more and become selfish, but the Lord always gently reminds me that I have everything that I need. I am content in what I have and I am content on where I am in life. The Lord blesses me with air in my lungs not just through the night, but the deep breath I breathe in the morning when I see the sun peering through my window. I thank the Lord all day long under my breath. He is just SO GOOD! It is unexplainable joy, I am ever grateful what He did for me, what He does for me, and what He will do in the future. He is an awesome God, He reigns over Heaven and earth. Rejoice, be thankful for all He does, and have unexplainable joy.

HIS PRESENCE

“You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” Psalm 16:11

I will end with this. IN HIS presence, there is fullness, FULLNESS, of joy. When I worship the Lord God Almighty, my soul swells, explodes, and overflows with joy. The closer I get to the Father the more my heart burns for Him. I cannot help but the smile while praising Him. He is a loving Father, so good, and perfect in all of His ways. Amen? Can we all just shout for joy and know He is good, He is God, and to stop hiding in shame, regret, and troubles? Can we just praise the Lord together and forget the past, Yeshua paid it all! Therefore we can now rejoice and live a joyful life. We are lights to others when they see the joy on our faces. We can be in bad times in our life and others will ask, “Why are you so happy?” And I can say that the joy of the Lord is my strength and in His presence is fullness of joy. Hallelujah.

Verses

“Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory,” 1 Peter1:8

“Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure.” Psalm 16:9

“A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.” Proverbs 17:22

“These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.” John 15:11

“For our heart is glad in him, because we trust in his holy name.” Psalm 33:21

“But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.” 1 Peter 4:13

“Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy,” Jude 1:24

 

In The Waiting

Singe life. A time of waiting…. Wait for prince charming to sweep you off your feet and marry you so you can get on with your life. Yeah, not true.

How To Wait

While in the beautiful season of waiting you are to serve. This is something lots of believers do. Occupy yourself with Gods work. If you just sit at home your whole life and just expect someone to come up to your door step and marry you, you will never get married. How do you meet people? You have to go out and serve in the right places (where there are good God-fearing people) and not going expecting to find “the one” but going in expectation for God to do something great, to move you in some way, to help people… Your whole purpose in life is to do Gods will. To live for Him. Marriage is just a bonus and a chance to do it with someone else. But your relationship with God does not change when you get married. Your marriage you so long for and dream about every night is not everything you think it is. Marriage is hard work. It is selfless. You literally cannot live without that person. You are with them forever and there is no escaping. It is a blessing, I love being married! But guys, it is still nothing compared to my relationship with God. No amount of kissing, of laughter, of sex, of anything you are so longing for in marriage will amount to God. Seriously. You think i’m not serious? You’ll see when you’re married.

God Is Your Everything. 

He is what you strive for, what you live for. That WILL NOT CHANGE when you get married. So if you have a bad relationship with God now, you will also have that when you get married. All the struggles you have now with lust and sin, you will still have when you get married unless you deal with them before you get married. When you get into a courtship, all the fights and disagreements you have when you are in a relationship will still be there when you get married unless you get rid of it before hand. You see how it works? All these things will remain when you are married. If you think your life will radically change and become a fairy tale when you get married, you are day dreaming something completely unrealistic. God is your soul sufficiency, your reason for living. Without Him, you marriage will fail. So if you do not have a relationship with Him now and you depend on your husband/wife for your only route of happiness you will be run dry. Because God is your happiness and that will not change. He fills the void inside. When you feel so alone and just want someone to “cuddle”, to understand you, to make you feel beautiful, loved, God is crying for you and saying “I am here, I am holding you, I understand you, you are beautiful in my sight, you are loved because I sent my Son to die on the cross for your sins My darling.” Do you know how much He longs for you?

Happiness

If you think you will find happiness in a boyfriend/girlfriend, you will be let down. Yes it is wonderful, and it is an adventure, but throughout it all, who is still there for you when you still feel alone? God is. Turn to Him and fix your eyes on the King of glory. Life isn’t all about waiting until you’re 16 so you can finally court, find a boy/girl, get married, and buy a house, have kids. It is about living for God. What happens when you get married and you fulfill everything you ever dreamed and you just sit there like… Okay… Now what? That happens because you just found out you just accomplished what you were waiting for and you do not know what else to do with yourself. But if you were living for God in the first place you would find that God has more for you than marriage. He has bigger plans beyond your plans. Plans that excel your expectations. Don’t always wait for “the next big thing”. LIVE FOR THE NOW.  We have a wonderful purpose in the Father. Such promises He has for us if only we can live it to the fullest instead of waiting. Waiting isn’t sitting down doing nothing and say, “Okay God move”. That is like sitting in your house for the rest of your life and waiting for prince charming to show up (Not likely). God doesn’t desire lazy people that feel entitled. Work in the waiting. Worship in the waiting, serve, smile, feel loved, be content. God is working in your life even when you feel the time is ticking before you surpass the “ideal age” for marriage. THERE IS NO IDEAL AGE. You will be married when God wants you to. Obey Him and trust Him. That is all you have to do. You have to work, and not just work, work hard for what you want. Gain some skills for yourself. One day when you are a husband/wife you should know how to do stuff.

Through It All

Through it all your eyes are on Him right? Just trust Him. He has that perfect someone for you or maybe He doesn’t. Either way you have to be at that place where you are okay with either way. Because either way, you life really doesn’t change much. You are still the same person with the same fire for God who longs to serve. Don’t wait, serve.

“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 38:4

“But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.” Galatians 5:16

“But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

“The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way;” Psalm 37:23

“And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.” Hebrews 11:6

“For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things.” Psalm 107:9

“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Psalm 46:10

The Fear of the Lord

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.

Proverbs 1:7

How To Fear God

The way I honor husband, my parents, my boss at work, the same way I treat the police, the government, the military; anyone who is in authority over me is the way I reverence the Lord and even more than what is listed. We should honor God above all of these things, but we are to treat anyone who is in authority with respect and have a healthy fear of them. I love my husband, and I want to do things for him and serve him the best way that I can in everything I do, in the same manner I do for my King. I love my parents, but growing up I would reverence them and fear what they could do to me if I broke the rules. When they walked in the room I wasn’t hiding in the corner afraid, I just feared them in a way that was respectful. I wouldn’t break the rules because there was consequences, but when I got punished my parents still loved me, just like when we do wrong things, God still loves us if we show Him we are truly sorry. I fear my boss and I love my boss. If I go against my boss and show no respect and a bad attitude then I can risk getting fired and losing my job. So I respect and fear my boss. This is how we love and respect God. He is our daddy, our boss, our husband, our friend, our authority. We must reverence Him!

Why Fear God?

Why fear God? Because He is the almighty King! The Lord over all the earth, the breath in my lungs, the song on my lips, the fire in my veins… He is God of all and because He created me, I worship and honor Him. There is no other god before Him, He is the only living God, amen? He isn’t a big teddy bear in the sky either, He is a Father with rules and expectations that we must follow. He doesn’t desire lawless children, but ones who obey His rules and love correction. The Bible says that fools despise correction but one who is wise fears God. We should thank God every time we get corrected.because that means He loves us! A dad who doesn’t care about his child will let the child run wild, break the rules, and eat whatever it wants. But a good dad who loves his child will treat his child the best way he can and correct it when it is wrong, and feed it right. That is our God. He has rules for us, we must obey. Review Leviticus 11, and also chapter 23 to learn Gods rules. (Also the 10 commandments apply).

Loving Him

Because He loves us, we love Him with respect. We also show we love Him by loving others. We should be living examples of who Yeshua (Jesus) was and is. He was humble, kind, and a true servant and He loves the broken. We should be reaching out to others that are in need and sharing the truth with them. By showing that we respect authority, eat healthy, and live positively we are showing the world where we are getting this from…. People will come up to you and ask, “Why are you so happy all the time?” and you can tell them that the joy of the Lord is your strength. He is with you and you will not fall. Be confident in who you are in Him. You are a child of the living God and fear shall no longer live in you. Fear is from the enemy, not of God. DO NOT FEAR! Only, honor and respect Him and peace shall be with you because you have God on your side. I am no longer a slave to fear but I am a child of God… Let those words play over and over in your mind until the fear leaves you. Fear has no power over you…. He is greater than that and He dwells in you so you are greater than that too! You can overcome anything with God on your side. Trust Him today. If you want to gain more wisdom and fear the Lord more, read your Bible daily, especially Proverbs… It is full of wisdom. Pray to God everyday and strengthen your relationship with Him and He will build confidence inside of you. Be blessed.